Friday, July 28, 2006

pain...a normal state

An english version at the bottom.

La douleur.La douleur lancinante d'avoir tout perdu.
Même ma confiance.En moi.En les hommes.
Ressasser que je ne vaux rien.Rien.
Je n'étais qu'un jouet entre Tes mains.
Parce que j'ai aimé un homme qui ne m'aimait pas.
Parce que j'ai tout donné à un homme qui ne me voyait pas.
Avoit tout fait et puis RIEN.

Le VIDE

Les larmes.Des que je suis seule,les larmes.
La détresse de l'abandon.
Guérir de la dépendance.Malgré moi.
Réapprendre une autonomie dont je ne veux plus.
Les souvenirs qui brulent comme un délicieux thé trop chaud.
La Solitude,et le poids d'un secret trop lourd pour moi.

Le temps passe.

Les heures et les jours sont insoutenables
Rien à faire.Me convaincre qu'il n'y à rien à faire.
Juste attendre. Juste T'Attendre
Passer le temps.
La douleur lancinante de Ton éloignement
Et de l'absence de nouvelles...
J'aurai préféré que tu sois MORT.
Pour que je puisses te suivre.Te rejoindre

Le VIDE.



The pain.The flashing pain of losing everything
Even my trust.In myself.In men.
Thinking that I'm worth nothing.Nothing.
I was only a toy in your hands.
Because i loved a man who didn't love me.
Because I gave everything to a man who didn't see me.
Doing everything and then NOTHING.

The EMPTYTINESS

The tears.As soon as I'm alone, the tears.
The panic of abandon.
To recove from the addiction.Despite me.
Re-learn an routine I dont want anymore.
The memories burning like over-heated, delicious tea.
The lonelyness, and the weight of a secret too much for me to carry.

Time passes

The hours and the days are unbearable
Nothing to do. Convince myself that there is nothing to do.
Just wait. Just wait for you.
Pass time.
The flashing pain of the distance
I would like it if you were DEAD.
So I can follow you.Join you.

The EMPTYTINESS

Keep it real,
Anais

6 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

DEEP!!!! omg, Anais, that's such a good poem. (I just hope you don't really feel that way.)

keep it up!

Lynne

7:07 p.m.  
Blogger Manue said...

I actually dont feel like this anymore,because I havent fallen in love since you-know-who. but i'll be fine...hopefully..

8:56 p.m.  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

your poem is crazy intense, but saddening. are you aware that i have a tear in my eye! huh? youve got talent anais! use it to make money :P cheers
terrence!

9:05 p.m.  
Blogger Manue said...

thx a lot terrence! and if i make lots of money,i'll buy u a kitchen...with lots and lots of knives! haha! i know u like that. and maybe even a snowboard!

9:06 p.m.  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

who is you-know-who?

-Jasray

9:30 p.m.  
Blogger Manue said...

lynne knows...so does everyone at deslauriers...

9:34 p.m.  

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