The day you go away...

I guess I used to cut
To see if I could still feel...
To know if my life was real...
I was cutting,but

All I was thinking of was you
All I did was because of you
This thing you did to me
My innocence, you took from me

I was thinking of your hands on my young breasts
The alcohol I could smell when you kissed me
The way you laughed while I was crying...
The same way you used to laugh at my jokes...

I cry as I write these words,as I re-open my wounds
And I look at my arm,at the scars you caused
No matter what they try to do, it won't go away
I still feel the pain every year,every day

But you know what the worst part it?
If you had given me time, I would've agreed
If you had given me time, I would've said "yes"
I guess you thought that what you did was for the best.

I look back at what you did today
And I wonder how God will make you pay.
And I hope that your friends will then help you
Cuz I won't do a single thing for you.

You took my dignity,my innocence,my life, and my joie-de-vivre
I hadn't done ANYTHING to you,all I wanted to do was love you
But I told you no,and you ignored me....
I forgive you

I forgive you for what you did, that night,4 years ago
That night when you killed me inside
That time when I said I wouldn't, when I said NO
I forgive you

And I want you to know that I pray for you
Every day I pray for the day

That God takes you away..
..Away from me.